Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Words from Brian O

From Brian O:
Isaiah 61:4- "They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; They will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations."

Increase/building in your heart in intimacy, character, and anointing.

Luke 2:52- "And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men."
This year you are going to increase in wisdom and character as you grow closer to the year God releases you into a position of real and tangible spiritual authority, responsibility and influence, and commissions you as a leader of His church.

1 Timothy 3: 1-12. A position of authority requires: responsibility, sacrifice, self-lessness, integrity, suffering (perseverance and  hope), anointing, power, wisdom.

Wednesday, May 8, 2013

A word from a dear friend

March 7, 2012: IHOP-KC (before leaving IHOP for Asheville, NC)
From Miss. Cherie Murdock:
"A season of rest.
Your past does not determine who you are today.
You are a daughter of the Most High God- He has intricately woven your royal garment. -woah!
See who you are in His garment as His daughter--when the accuser comes--look in the mirror!
He is for you, not against you.
Open bare your heart before Him--all your pain and frustrations--give them to Him, He'll exchange them for Himself.
He's humbling you--He's increasing His presence in your life, but it's painful to let go of yourself.
FAITH--your faith will carry you--He's going to call you to mighty things--TRUST in the unseen. You'll need much grace.
JOY is your portion, Hillary, forever. It will carry you--it's His presence.
Fix your gaze on Jesus--the author and perfector of your faith. JOY comes in the pain.
Look and obsess to Him-- He wants to affirm you.
Receive. Sit. Listen.
He MAKES us lie down.
He's teaching you perseverance--to war, to fight, to ask, to not give up.
You're an evangelist-- He's given you eternal perspective.
Intimacy before intercession."

April 11, 2012
From Miss. Cherie Murdock:
"In His presence--there is fullness of JOY (Psalm 16:11)--at His right hand pleasures forevermore!
PATIENCE-- "count it all JOY when you fall into various trials"--James 1:2-4
God is the completion of circles. He finishes and completes them.
Trade the spirit of heaviness with a garment of praise. Clothe yourself in the garment of praise. (Isaiah 61:3).
People have seen you change; you're like a different person. You have no idea what the LORD has deposited in you. There's no way to measure His Spirit. All He's deposited in you; He wants you to give it, to impart it to others. A season of impartation and release, and BUILDING with your own hands. Returning to the treasures He's given you, going back and watering the seeds underground, going deeper in the treasures.
Let Him prophesy over you--and prophesy over yourself.
Bind the spirit of heaviness--FREEDOM (FULLNESS), Spirit of Joy
Take authority and bind. Pray in the Spirit. Greater is He who is in you. Reassurance that He is leading you and He has you, He's confident.

I, Hillary, heard Him say, "One of the main weapons He's given me in fighting oppression is DANCING. Dance is a weapon He's given me, use it! It fits me, it feels right (like David's sling). Daily reminder: Our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual powers and principalities (Ephesians 6:18-19). The Lord's been highlighting identity and authority. Gazing upon Him, it's His light that heals! He is the Father of Lights. He's going to heal my scars. Wherever you are, He will be your home. Home is where He is-- His color, His sound, His eyes, His character."

Sunday, May 5, 2013

And this is the victory that has overcome the world--our FAITH

"For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world--our faith. Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?"- 1 John 5:4-5

Today at my church we celebrated the life of a beloved member of our body, a lovely older woman by the name of Jan Boatwright. She had been battling cancer for quite some time, and this past week went to be home with the Lord. She had expressed the desire to live, the church had been fervently praying for her healing, she had even shown improvement recently. But the Lord didn't heal her. The pastor expressed that there was ample faith and many believers across the country standing in the gap for her. It seems there was faith to move the mountain, and that that wasn't the issue. When faced with situations like these, it's hard not to ask the question, "Why then didn't you answer Lord?". I have been very troubled by all the sickness I've been coming across in the body of Christ, wondering, "Lord, this should not be so. Why are your people not set apart from the world in this area? Why do so many seem to be just as sick as unbelievers and battling many of the same diseases? (including myself). And many of them have faith in your healing power. They seek you diligently, they pray, they fast. But they don't receive the healing they've asked for. Your Word says that you bore our sicknesses, that you heal all of our diseases. So why so many times have you not fulfilled this promise? How do you get glory out of letting your son, your daughter die of cancer? It seems like you let the devil win." There is the temptation that comes time and time again to get angry and offended with God, not understanding why He won't answer this prayer, when it is clearly His will to heal, and he says that what we pray according to His will, it will be given to us. I've been learning a lot about the spiritual roots to disease and inner healing, as well as learning how to eat healthy. In many ways I've become too focused on these things and have let them cause me anxiety, worry and fear. The Lord let me see they've even been turning into idols, that I am putting my hope, my trust in. But that's all another subject for another post. But it has to do with hope. We can put our hope in so many things. But what the Lord reminded me of, but in a revelatory way today is that 'when our hope is truly in Him, it does not disappoint. His love can never fail. When we believe things about God based on our circumstances, we lose hope'. This has happened to me many times. I have become very frustrated and discouraged, so much so that I've wanted to die and have asked the Lord several times to please just let me die--to either heal me or take me away. But this is a desperation without hope. Because with hope, there's no giving up. And I haven't given up because I still have hope. But there's been many times were I've wanted to because I was losing hope. But the Lord brought me back to His goodness every time. And just one ounce of His goodness is more than enough to outweigh all the bad! His love is so much bigger, so much greater! It surpasses everything. I believe it's these two things--hope and experiencing His presence-- as well as reflecting on His faithfulness and testifying of it, that have carried me through and continue to carry me. Through my pastor's message the Lord reaffirmed His desire and intent to produce true faith in me, in us. 'When we can navigate through the difficulties and come out still standing in the truth--no matter what the outcome-- we have got the victory! Even in the face of mystery, when we trust Him and still believe, we've won the fight. Delayed answers are gaining interest. There's risks in the kingdom-Peter had to take a risk when he stepped out of the boat. We are called to live by faith. There's faith for miracles, and there's faith to endure. We see both at work in the book of Acts. As David said, "though You slay me, I will trust you, God.." When Stephen was stoned, he didn't see it as a defeat- he saw the glory of God.' Persecution of Christians and the horrendous torture they endure is the hardest thing I deal with in my faith-- understanding the goodness of God and trusting Him in the face of that. Why He would let people go through such horrific pain and suffering? And I don't even get why Jesus had to go through this physical, excruciatingly painful death for us. I'm sure many of Jesus' followers/disciples saw the crucifixion as a defeat--it looked like the enemy had won. Darkness was all around. They saw weakness, not power. Shame, not honor. It all looked upside down. Where's God's victory and glory in this? A bloody, gruesome sight. God being put to death like a criminal? Could anyone make sense of it? This is the one that's supposed to be our king-- who will crush our oppressors and deliver us from evil with His justice? But that was the victory. And he proved it by rising from the dead. Death swallowed up in victory! He was obedient to the point of death. He entrusted Himself to the Father. I was able to see that Jan truly does have the victory--that she is victorious! She trusted her Father up until her last breath. She kept the faith, and she's now in the glory of His presence clothed with a beautiful robe and crown. Jan has the victory! The victory is her faith-- in Jesus Christ the Son of God who bought her with His own blood. As hard as it is to the let go of the idea that it just would look and feel so much better and seem to make sense for the Lord to have healed her and let her have lived another decade or two here-- doing the work of the kingdom and to leave this earth in a way that's not ugly with the pain and corruption of sickness, I can't understand it. Although I believe there's more that the Lord wants to show me about sickness and healing because I do believe this is deep in His heart (Jesus went around healing all the sick--if He didn't care that much about health and wholeness in people's bodies, then why bother? And why was it such a key part of his ministry?) but for now, I think He wants to heal my heart from the pain of this lie about the absence of His goodness and love in the midst of suffering-- that I might rest in the glorious freedom of the victory of this truth--that He IS GOOD! After all, Jesus said, 'Why do you call me good? No one is good except God.' And it was this God that put Him to death. But He knew the Father. He knew this to be true. That God is good. I believe that this is what faith is--not just believing--but knowing, and experiencing the truth about God's nature. "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things unseen"- Hebrews 11:1.

"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, that the genuineness of your faithbeing much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,whom having not seen[a] you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, receiving the end of your faith—the salvation of your souls." - 1 Peter 1:3-9

May the Son of God find faith in our hearts at His coming! He is the author and the finisher of our faith. We can trust Him to keep what we have entrusted to Him until that day. He's faithful to our hearts, He is faithful to the end! 


Romans 8
38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

1 Timothy 1:
Therefore I remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you through the laying on of my hands. For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me His prisoner, but share with me in the sufferings for the gospel according to the power of God, who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began, 10 but has now been revealed by the appearing of our Savior Jesus Christ, who has abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel, 11 to which I was appointed a preacher, an apostle, and a teacher of the Gentiles.[b] 12 For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day.
13 Hold fast the pattern of sound words which you have heard from me, in faith and love which are in Christ Jesus. 14 That good thing which was committed to you, keep by the Holy Spirit who dwells in us.

In this partnership He has invited us into, it is our part to abide in Him, and let His Words abide in us (John 15:7)--to hold fast to the truth. But it's the Holy Spirit that enables us--we must depend more upon Him than ourselves! The Lord has sent the Holy Spirit on assignment to us for our sanctification by the truth. And He did it all for us according to His purpose and grace! 

So let us encourage one another in these things daily and even more as we see that Day approaching...- Hebrews 3:13!

He's for us, not against us. He's committed to bringing forth His purposes in our life. May we cling to Him, and not let go! He won't let us go! He promises to always be there for us, in times of prosperity and in times of difficulty. He's able to work it all out for our good if we let Him!


I can't believe how much it changes things when I read and declare His Word--so often I've neglected i--but it's the good news we need to hear every day! We need a constant reminder of His truth and promises for our life--He knew that-- that's why He said to put His Word everywhere!  -Deut.6: 6-9. That is His guarantee for our success! And our success is not as the world defines it--it's in having faith in Him-- in loving Him and being loved by Him! 

"...nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day." -2 Timothy 1:12

"Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it."-1 Thess.5:23-24

Saturday, May 4, 2013

Prophetic Word- (around Feb.2012)-IHOP-KC

At dance practice we each released a prophetic movement with no music for less than a minute, and then shared what we saw prophetically in that person's movement. The words that were given to me in my movement, (which I didn't expect to get) were "Warrior Bride, Perseverance, Hungry, You won't give up until you get it, you'll stop at nothing." These definitely describe the season I've been in!

Our leader shared a word with this and gave us a sheet that had this word on it:

"Our deepest fear is not that we inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

We then had a time for meditation and to write down what we heard from the Lord. I got much more than I was expecting. The word meant so much to me that I put it in my little 'treasury' of other prophetic words I've gotten over the years. Here's what I heard the Lord speak to me:

"You are stunning, there is no flaw in you my love, my dove. My eyes burn for you, I want you to burn with this consuming love. I'm like a huge ocean, there's no limits to my love, no boundaries, no bounds. You are free in it, free to move wherever you want to go. I am etched in your frame, I'm in your very design, I have made you one with me. Let me have your weaknesses, let me have your feelings of inadequacy. You lack nothing in me. Look at me, the one who's inside of you. Do not fear, take my hand. I will lead you, to unknown places of mystery. I want to fascinate your heart--over and over again. Jump into the great ocean before you. Go explore! You will know me when you find me."

"Excitement, expectation, anticipation. Peace. Nothing in the way. Connected, clinging to. Freedom, no chains! A sparkle in your eyes, a smiling heart. " :)

Prophecy- unknown date-(around summer/fall 2012)

The Lord said to me: "Daughter, you have chosen the good part. It will not be taken away from you. But you can give it away, you can choose something else. You can choose to let other things take this place, this space."

Prophecy Rooms at IHOP-KC
"In the past you thought that God was unfair with you, but you've developed a fear of the Lord as you've gotten to know Him, that He is an all merciful, just God."
Amos 9
"You won't be doubting the Lord, you'll be confident, you'll keep getting stronger and stronger. "

"A white piece of cloth being wrung out. You've said yes to Him in every way. He's tested and tried you because you want to be used by Him. He's going to keep dipping you in the clean water and wringing you out"- The Lord also spoke to me from this word about the cloth in relation to a previous prophecy of me being like a sponge. He showed me that a cloth is bigger than a sponge, it can hold more water, it has more uses. It can be joined together with other pieces of cloth. It can be painted on, decorated. It can be used to tend to wounds. It can be used to cover.

"Butterflies- they're a caterpillar all their life and then they cocoon themselves. They're low as they crawl around. Then they fly around and feed on nectar." Different stages of development-times of rest, times of flying.

"A cross-road--there's a road less traveled that the Lord is highlighting, but there's a fear you won't be strong enough. You can find His joy in those places that others won't go because it's a gift, not just your personality. He's going to take you places where others wouldn't go because of fear of rejection, because they're spirits would be crushed. But yours will not because of this deep joy He's put in you.
God wants to intoxicate you with His love. He's becoming the lover of your soul--"
Song of Solomon 5:2-8
"burst into dance, and be undignified and others will be raptured into His love"

Micah 4:2
"You're going to go up the mountain and you're going to take others with you because of your rapturous joy--it's not just for you. Abandonment and no fear of man will bring you into that realm of deliverance in dance.

Revelation 2
Hidden manna to eat. Leading people into repentance and into the glory and riches of the Lord, out of the worldly things and into the glory of the Lord.
A picture of two mountains and a valley with shade, and white rocks to the right.

Crazy prophetic dreams from Chrissy Kohler-major confirmations from the Lord

12/28/2011
From Chrissy Kohler:
"So when I was praying, I seen a picture that I have never seen before or ever. I seen the Lord's arm stretched out (it was like a Father who holds a child like a football where the legs are dangling) and I noticed that the child was you. He was holding you like a child in His arm. He was holding you close to His chest and His heart. You hear His heartbeat, and what I also seen was He is carrying you through this season! He's carrying you and you don't have to do it alone or carry yourself. Also, the child represented Him restoring your child-like faith. You are going to have faith like a child and joy like a child. He's restoring. "

ACTS School Confirmation:
"For the past several weeks the Lord has been putting the word: Acts or the Book of Acts everywhere. When stuff like this happens I know it's for someone or somebody. Thinking and praying who its for- thinking someone around here. For weeks straight Acts would show up. Whether it would be I flipped my bible open to Acts.. Or walk into store and the word Acts is bolded.. To getting coffee mugs with acts verse on it.. To getting impressed by the Lord to even read the Book of Acts. It was everywhere and everytime I turned around. Finally I am like okay Lord who is this for. It was crazy. So two nights ago the Lord impressed on my heart (in middle of night) to start going through words I have gotten. Not thinking of anything I was reading the words and prayers we have prayed for each other and you spoke into my life. And that made me think I wonder how this girl is and wonder if she's still in KC. And I would randomly cross your name when this acts thing was going on in my phone. So two nights ago I had a dream. I had a dream we were together at KC. I was doing fire in the night and you were doing some Acts class. An awakening was happening. So I woke up out of that dream questioning: does ihopkc have an acts class? So in middle of night i hopped on the internet and long behold they had an acts class. I was like woah. And a major thing too that stuck out in the dream was your heart. On the heart was written the word LIFE. I was like woah. Because going back when I was reading the words you have given me. On a small piece of paper during a conference you passed me a note and it was a big heart on the page with the word LIFE written on it. And on the back an Acts verse. Then im like woah. So i was thinking for a day I wonder if this girl still has same number. So by faith was scared to text the number (wasnt going to because my first thought was I don't want to bother her she probably doesn't remember me) so I texted and woah. Ha. Then you mentioned about the acts course and i literally almost passed out haha and then you called. Ha."

Inner Healing Confirmation: (I had been asking the Lord how was I do missions when I'm still so broken?)
"The dream started where I was like the "outside" person in the dream, but I was seeing everything that was going on. I was seeing everything that was happening, and in the dream all I could do was weep. What I was seeing through my eyes was your house, and household and family. I seen you were in the corner weeping. You were balling your eyes out, scared, and hurt. I knew it was you because all of the physical features that I know of you to be was you. Also, there were parts where you were younger than you are now that I seen you in the corner, and also seen you as present age as of today. To the left in the corner of my eye, I saw what seem to be your mother. It was a latina lady, I knew she was latina because only of her mannerisms, the way she talked to you, and she was even yelling in spanish. She was speaking hurtful things, a lot of emotional abuse and verbal abuse. Then I seen a huge light come to your corner and I seen Jesus. Jesus was trying to get you to STAND firm and he was holding you blocking every dart, ever negative word, every abuse. He blocked it all. Finally He picked you up and was holding you to stand. Then I seen the Lord pull up EXTREMELY deep roots as He was holding you. What was extremely clear were the roots, they seriously looked like roots and they were so detailed. He was pulling up and rooting out the roots of bitterness, anger, past shame, hurts, emotional and physical abuses, etc those were some that were highlighted, and then He set you standing and you gave your mom a hug and I woke up."


Unfulfilled dreams

11/19/2012
2 Corinthians 8:10-12
A word from the Lord confirming my desire for ACTS school and missions, that I will complete the desire I've had. A dream (literally, in the night) to not postpone my dreams to be used by Him in ministry.

Grace upon grace--undeserved favor to do what you are incapable of doing on your own.

The Lord had given me a revelation a couple years back about Jesus' years before His ministry, and that there were dreams and desires He had been carrying in His heart for a long time, that He longed for the day when they would be fulfilled. Recently he spoke to me and showed me that just like Jesus had carried the dream in His heart to die for His beloved ones, to redeem them--to bring them back to the Father--all those years leading up to His crucifixion, that this was burning in His heart, so has He been carrying the dream of His return to marry His beloved bride. The Lord encourage my heart--that He knows and understands the pain of unfulfilled dreams and desires!
As I heard the song being sung, "he will come, riding on the clouds, with fire in His eyes, and justice in His heart..." this song arose in my spirit:
"how long have you had that day in your heart, how long have you had that dream in your heart? How long have you carried it? You long to fulfill it..."
There is this same cry for justice that was in Jesus, growing and increasing in His people. And He promises that He will answer-- the just Judge of the earth will come, with a sword upon His side, and He will fulfill everything that He has spoken and promised. It is in His heart, and His zeal will accomplish it.  Let us hasten His coming as we cry out, "Maranatha, Come Lord Jesus, Come!"