Wednesday, May 11, 2011

No greater joy than to weep with Jesus

There's no greater joy, no greater reward, no greater gift I could ask for than to weep with Jesus, to weep from His overwhelming love. Oh to feel His heart, to touch Him. I am undone! Everything within me resounds with one cry for Him alone! He is so beautiful, so lovely, so wonderful to gaze upon! There is none like Jesus, not one! Oh how could anyone want anything else but this Man! He who is the fullness of God, the perfect express image of the Father. We must want Him, and Him alone. Nothing else can satisfy, nothing! Only His love, only Him, oh to be with Him! We were made for nothing less than the highest pleasure of knowing Him! He suffered death on a cross to take away our sin. He has brought us as near to Him as a child in the womb. And no longer does He call Himself Master, but our Maker is our Husband. Could He possibly declare a greater love and nearness towards us? What love can you find like this? None!
Recently the Lord has burdened my heart with His desire and love for the nations & I have interceded for them with many tears and few words. There is no greater joy than to weep with Jesus, to feel His desire for the people. He is the desire of the nations. There is nothing more I could want than to feel His heart, to carry it in me. Everything within me resounds with one cry, for His love, that He would come and make wrong things right. I had a dream awhile back and in the dream there was someone I know asking me what nation I wanted to go to take the gospel to, if I could choose anywhere, not needing to consider finances, where would I go. But in my heart I was consumed with such passion and love for Jesus my response wasn't "Well I want to go here and do this", but I answered with a cry and a burning heart, "You don't get it, I want Jesus! I just want Him, He's all I want." I can't remember my exact words but I remember waking up from the dream and being surprised at my heart's response and how in love with Jesus I was! After expressing my first desire to know and love Jesus, to be with Him, I was asked the same question again later in the dream. This time, I felt the strong desire in my heart to go to Cuba, and I answered, "I want to go the Caribbean!" Reflecting on this dream, I'm reminded how in bringing me to the House of Prayer, the Lord has been drawing me back to my first love, to let this desire be foremost in my life, to be strongest in my heart. The Holy Spirit is highlighting this in the body of Christ, to make the first commandment first again in our lives and to become the love-sick bride who longs for Jesus' coming. At the same time, the Lord seems to be raising up messengers and ones He is preparing to shoot as arrows into the nations. Ones who will carry the spirit of prayer and intercession, who will speak the whole counsel of God, ones who will be voices and not echoes, burning and shining lamps that will bring the lost, sick, broken, oppressed into encounter with the power of God and prepare them for the coming of the Lord. I know the Lord has me here for a strategic time in His plan for my life, but I've come to see that plan with a greater vision that doesn't just involve me, and doesn't just involve work. I'm a part of a much bigger plan, and I'm called to be a working lover, not a loving worker. I am called to know Him & be with Him, and then to make Him known to others. What will Jesus ask me on that day? Will He ask me how many people I saved? Or will He ask me if I loved well? Without love, I am nothing. The words from the song they sung today says it perfectly: "I just want love, I just want you, God, I just want love, knowing you. No greater treasure, this one can't be taken away, I just want the gold of knowing you."