From Brian O:
Isaiah 61:4- "They will rebuild the ancient ruins and restore the places long devastated; They will renew the ruined cities that have been devastated for generations."
Increase/building in your heart in intimacy, character, and anointing.
Luke 2:52- "And Jesus grew in wisdom and stature, and in favor with God and men."
This year you are going to increase in wisdom and character as you grow closer to the year God releases you into a position of real and tangible spiritual authority, responsibility and influence, and commissions you as a leader of His church.
1 Timothy 3: 1-12. A position of authority requires: responsibility, sacrifice, self-lessness, integrity, suffering (perseverance and hope), anointing, power, wisdom.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
Wednesday, May 8, 2013
A word from a dear friend
March 7, 2012: IHOP-KC (before leaving IHOP for Asheville, NC)
From Miss. Cherie Murdock:
"A season of rest.
Your past does not determine who you are today.
You are a daughter of the Most High God- He has intricately woven your royal garment. -woah!
See who you are in His garment as His daughter--when the accuser comes--look in the mirror!
He is for you, not against you.
Open bare your heart before Him--all your pain and frustrations--give them to Him, He'll exchange them for Himself.
He's humbling you--He's increasing His presence in your life, but it's painful to let go of yourself.
FAITH--your faith will carry you--He's going to call you to mighty things--TRUST in the unseen. You'll need much grace.
JOY is your portion, Hillary, forever. It will carry you--it's His presence.
Fix your gaze on Jesus--the author and perfector of your faith. JOY comes in the pain.
Look and obsess to Him-- He wants to affirm you.
Receive. Sit. Listen.
He MAKES us lie down.
He's teaching you perseverance--to war, to fight, to ask, to not give up.
You're an evangelist-- He's given you eternal perspective.
Intimacy before intercession."
April 11, 2012
From Miss. Cherie Murdock:
"In His presence--there is fullness of JOY (Psalm 16:11)--at His right hand pleasures forevermore!
PATIENCE-- "count it all JOY when you fall into various trials"--James 1:2-4
God is the completion of circles. He finishes and completes them.
Trade the spirit of heaviness with a garment of praise. Clothe yourself in the garment of praise. (Isaiah 61:3).
People have seen you change; you're like a different person. You have no idea what the LORD has deposited in you. There's no way to measure His Spirit. All He's deposited in you; He wants you to give it, to impart it to others. A season of impartation and release, and BUILDING with your own hands. Returning to the treasures He's given you, going back and watering the seeds underground, going deeper in the treasures.
Let Him prophesy over you--and prophesy over yourself.
Bind the spirit of heaviness--FREEDOM (FULLNESS), Spirit of Joy
Take authority and bind. Pray in the Spirit. Greater is He who is in you. Reassurance that He is leading you and He has you, He's confident.
I, Hillary, heard Him say, "One of the main weapons He's given me in fighting oppression is DANCING. Dance is a weapon He's given me, use it! It fits me, it feels right (like David's sling). Daily reminder: Our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual powers and principalities (Ephesians 6:18-19). The Lord's been highlighting identity and authority. Gazing upon Him, it's His light that heals! He is the Father of Lights. He's going to heal my scars. Wherever you are, He will be your home. Home is where He is-- His color, His sound, His eyes, His character."
From Miss. Cherie Murdock:
"A season of rest.
Your past does not determine who you are today.
You are a daughter of the Most High God- He has intricately woven your royal garment. -woah!
See who you are in His garment as His daughter--when the accuser comes--look in the mirror!
He is for you, not against you.
Open bare your heart before Him--all your pain and frustrations--give them to Him, He'll exchange them for Himself.
He's humbling you--He's increasing His presence in your life, but it's painful to let go of yourself.
FAITH--your faith will carry you--He's going to call you to mighty things--TRUST in the unseen. You'll need much grace.
JOY is your portion, Hillary, forever. It will carry you--it's His presence.
Fix your gaze on Jesus--the author and perfector of your faith. JOY comes in the pain.
Look and obsess to Him-- He wants to affirm you.
Receive. Sit. Listen.
He MAKES us lie down.
He's teaching you perseverance--to war, to fight, to ask, to not give up.
You're an evangelist-- He's given you eternal perspective.
Intimacy before intercession."
April 11, 2012
From Miss. Cherie Murdock:
"In His presence--there is fullness of JOY (Psalm 16:11)--at His right hand pleasures forevermore!
PATIENCE-- "count it all JOY when you fall into various trials"--James 1:2-4
God is the completion of circles. He finishes and completes them.
Trade the spirit of heaviness with a garment of praise. Clothe yourself in the garment of praise. (Isaiah 61:3).
People have seen you change; you're like a different person. You have no idea what the LORD has deposited in you. There's no way to measure His Spirit. All He's deposited in you; He wants you to give it, to impart it to others. A season of impartation and release, and BUILDING with your own hands. Returning to the treasures He's given you, going back and watering the seeds underground, going deeper in the treasures.
Let Him prophesy over you--and prophesy over yourself.
Bind the spirit of heaviness--FREEDOM (FULLNESS), Spirit of Joy
Take authority and bind. Pray in the Spirit. Greater is He who is in you. Reassurance that He is leading you and He has you, He's confident.
I, Hillary, heard Him say, "One of the main weapons He's given me in fighting oppression is DANCING. Dance is a weapon He's given me, use it! It fits me, it feels right (like David's sling). Daily reminder: Our fight is not against flesh and blood, but against spiritual powers and principalities (Ephesians 6:18-19). The Lord's been highlighting identity and authority. Gazing upon Him, it's His light that heals! He is the Father of Lights. He's going to heal my scars. Wherever you are, He will be your home. Home is where He is-- His color, His sound, His eyes, His character."
Sunday, May 5, 2013
And this is the victory that has overcome the world--our FAITH
"For whatever is born of God overcomes the world. And this is the victory that has overcome the world--our faith. Who is he who overcomes the world, but he who believes that Jesus is the Son of God?"- 1 John 5:4-5
Today at my church we celebrated the life of a beloved member of our body, a lovely older woman by the name of Jan Boatwright. She had been battling cancer for quite some time, and this past week went to be home with the Lord. She had expressed the desire to live, the church had been fervently praying for her healing, she had even shown improvement recently. But the Lord didn't heal her. The pastor expressed that there was ample faith and many believers across the country standing in the gap for her. It seems there was faith to move the mountain, and that that wasn't the issue. When faced with situations like these, it's hard not to ask the question, "Why then didn't you answer Lord?". I have been very troubled by all the sickness I've been coming across in the body of Christ, wondering, "Lord, this should not be so. Why are your people not set apart from the world in this area? Why do so many seem to be just as sick as unbelievers and battling many of the same diseases? (including myself). And many of them have faith in your healing power. They seek you diligently, they pray, they fast. But they don't receive the healing they've asked for. Your Word says that you bore our sicknesses, that you heal all of our diseases. So why so many times have you not fulfilled this promise? How do you get glory out of letting your son, your daughter die of cancer? It seems like you let the devil win." There is the temptation that comes time and time again to get angry and offended with God, not understanding why He won't answer this prayer, when it is clearly His will to heal, and he says that what we pray according to His will, it will be given to us. I've been learning a lot about the spiritual roots to disease and inner healing, as well as learning how to eat healthy. In many ways I've become too focused on these things and have let them cause me anxiety, worry and fear. The Lord let me see they've even been turning into idols, that I am putting my hope, my trust in. But that's all another subject for another post. But it has to do with hope. We can put our hope in so many things. But what the Lord reminded me of, but in a revelatory way today is that 'when our hope is truly in Him, it does not disappoint. His love can never fail. When we believe things about God based on our circumstances, we lose hope'. This has happened to me many times. I have become very frustrated and discouraged, so much so that I've wanted to die and have asked the Lord several times to please just let me die--to either heal me or take me away. But this is a desperation without hope. Because with hope, there's no giving up. And I haven't given up because I still have hope. But there's been many times were I've wanted to because I was losing hope. But the Lord brought me back to His goodness every time. And just one ounce of His goodness is more than enough to outweigh all the bad! His love is so much bigger, so much greater! It surpasses everything. I believe it's these two things--hope and experiencing His presence-- as well as reflecting on His faithfulness and testifying of it, that have carried me through and continue to carry me. Through my pastor's message the Lord reaffirmed His desire and intent to produce true faith in me, in us. 'When we can navigate through the difficulties and come out still standing in the truth--no matter what the outcome-- we have got the victory! Even in the face of mystery, when we trust Him and still believe, we've won the fight. Delayed answers are gaining interest. There's risks in the kingdom-Peter had to take a risk when he stepped out of the boat. We are called to live by faith. There's faith for miracles, and there's faith to endure. We see both at work in the book of Acts. As David said, "though You slay me, I will trust you, God.." When Stephen was stoned, he didn't see it as a defeat- he saw the glory of God.' Persecution of Christians and the horrendous torture they endure is the hardest thing I deal with in my faith-- understanding the goodness of God and trusting Him in the face of that. Why He would let people go through such horrific pain and suffering? And I don't even get why Jesus had to go through this physical, excruciatingly painful death for us. I'm sure many of Jesus' followers/disciples saw the crucifixion as a defeat--it looked like the enemy had won. Darkness was all around. They saw weakness, not power. Shame, not honor. It all looked upside down. Where's God's victory and glory in this? A bloody, gruesome sight. God being put to death like a criminal? Could anyone make sense of it? This is the one that's supposed to be our king-- who will crush our oppressors and deliver us from evil with His justice? But that was the victory. And he proved it by rising from the dead. Death swallowed up in victory! He was obedient to the point of death. He entrusted Himself to the Father. I was able to see that Jan truly does have the victory--that she is victorious! She trusted her Father up until her last breath. She kept the faith, and she's now in the glory of His presence clothed with a beautiful robe and crown. Jan has the victory! The victory is her faith-- in Jesus Christ the Son of God who bought her with His own blood. As hard as it is to the let go of the idea that it just would look and feel so much better and seem to make sense for the Lord to have healed her and let her have lived another decade or two here-- doing the work of the kingdom and to leave this earth in a way that's not ugly with the pain and corruption of sickness, I can't understand it. Although I believe there's more that the Lord wants to show me about sickness and healing because I do believe this is deep in His heart (Jesus went around healing all the sick--if He didn't care that much about health and wholeness in people's bodies, then why bother? And why was it such a key part of his ministry?) but for now, I think He wants to heal my heart from the pain of this lie about the absence of His goodness and love in the midst of suffering-- that I might rest in the glorious freedom of the victory of this truth--that He IS GOOD! After all, Jesus said, 'Why do you call me good? No one is good except God.' And it was this God that put Him to death. But He knew the Father. He knew this to be true. That God is good. I believe that this is what faith is--not just believing--but knowing, and experiencing the truth about God's nature. "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things unseen"- Hebrews 11:1.
"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
He's for us, not against us. He's committed to bringing forth His purposes in our life. May we cling to Him, and not let go! He won't let us go! He promises to always be there for us, in times of prosperity and in times of difficulty. He's able to work it all out for our good if we let Him!
Today at my church we celebrated the life of a beloved member of our body, a lovely older woman by the name of Jan Boatwright. She had been battling cancer for quite some time, and this past week went to be home with the Lord. She had expressed the desire to live, the church had been fervently praying for her healing, she had even shown improvement recently. But the Lord didn't heal her. The pastor expressed that there was ample faith and many believers across the country standing in the gap for her. It seems there was faith to move the mountain, and that that wasn't the issue. When faced with situations like these, it's hard not to ask the question, "Why then didn't you answer Lord?". I have been very troubled by all the sickness I've been coming across in the body of Christ, wondering, "Lord, this should not be so. Why are your people not set apart from the world in this area? Why do so many seem to be just as sick as unbelievers and battling many of the same diseases? (including myself). And many of them have faith in your healing power. They seek you diligently, they pray, they fast. But they don't receive the healing they've asked for. Your Word says that you bore our sicknesses, that you heal all of our diseases. So why so many times have you not fulfilled this promise? How do you get glory out of letting your son, your daughter die of cancer? It seems like you let the devil win." There is the temptation that comes time and time again to get angry and offended with God, not understanding why He won't answer this prayer, when it is clearly His will to heal, and he says that what we pray according to His will, it will be given to us. I've been learning a lot about the spiritual roots to disease and inner healing, as well as learning how to eat healthy. In many ways I've become too focused on these things and have let them cause me anxiety, worry and fear. The Lord let me see they've even been turning into idols, that I am putting my hope, my trust in. But that's all another subject for another post. But it has to do with hope. We can put our hope in so many things. But what the Lord reminded me of, but in a revelatory way today is that 'when our hope is truly in Him, it does not disappoint. His love can never fail. When we believe things about God based on our circumstances, we lose hope'. This has happened to me many times. I have become very frustrated and discouraged, so much so that I've wanted to die and have asked the Lord several times to please just let me die--to either heal me or take me away. But this is a desperation without hope. Because with hope, there's no giving up. And I haven't given up because I still have hope. But there's been many times were I've wanted to because I was losing hope. But the Lord brought me back to His goodness every time. And just one ounce of His goodness is more than enough to outweigh all the bad! His love is so much bigger, so much greater! It surpasses everything. I believe it's these two things--hope and experiencing His presence-- as well as reflecting on His faithfulness and testifying of it, that have carried me through and continue to carry me. Through my pastor's message the Lord reaffirmed His desire and intent to produce true faith in me, in us. 'When we can navigate through the difficulties and come out still standing in the truth--no matter what the outcome-- we have got the victory! Even in the face of mystery, when we trust Him and still believe, we've won the fight. Delayed answers are gaining interest. There's risks in the kingdom-Peter had to take a risk when he stepped out of the boat. We are called to live by faith. There's faith for miracles, and there's faith to endure. We see both at work in the book of Acts. As David said, "though You slay me, I will trust you, God.." When Stephen was stoned, he didn't see it as a defeat- he saw the glory of God.' Persecution of Christians and the horrendous torture they endure is the hardest thing I deal with in my faith-- understanding the goodness of God and trusting Him in the face of that. Why He would let people go through such horrific pain and suffering? And I don't even get why Jesus had to go through this physical, excruciatingly painful death for us. I'm sure many of Jesus' followers/disciples saw the crucifixion as a defeat--it looked like the enemy had won. Darkness was all around. They saw weakness, not power. Shame, not honor. It all looked upside down. Where's God's victory and glory in this? A bloody, gruesome sight. God being put to death like a criminal? Could anyone make sense of it? This is the one that's supposed to be our king-- who will crush our oppressors and deliver us from evil with His justice? But that was the victory. And he proved it by rising from the dead. Death swallowed up in victory! He was obedient to the point of death. He entrusted Himself to the Father. I was able to see that Jan truly does have the victory--that she is victorious! She trusted her Father up until her last breath. She kept the faith, and she's now in the glory of His presence clothed with a beautiful robe and crown. Jan has the victory! The victory is her faith-- in Jesus Christ the Son of God who bought her with His own blood. As hard as it is to the let go of the idea that it just would look and feel so much better and seem to make sense for the Lord to have healed her and let her have lived another decade or two here-- doing the work of the kingdom and to leave this earth in a way that's not ugly with the pain and corruption of sickness, I can't understand it. Although I believe there's more that the Lord wants to show me about sickness and healing because I do believe this is deep in His heart (Jesus went around healing all the sick--if He didn't care that much about health and wholeness in people's bodies, then why bother? And why was it such a key part of his ministry?) but for now, I think He wants to heal my heart from the pain of this lie about the absence of His goodness and love in the midst of suffering-- that I might rest in the glorious freedom of the victory of this truth--that He IS GOOD! After all, Jesus said, 'Why do you call me good? No one is good except God.' And it was this God that put Him to death. But He knew the Father. He knew this to be true. That God is good. I believe that this is what faith is--not just believing--but knowing, and experiencing the truth about God's nature. "Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evidence of things unseen"- Hebrews 11:1.
"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His abundant mercy has begotten us again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 to an inheritance incorruptible and undefiled and that does not fade away, reserved in heaven for you, 5 who are kept by the power of God through faith for salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.
6 In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while, if need be, you have been grieved by various trials, 7 that the genuineness of your faith, being much more precious than gold that perishes, though it is tested by fire, may be found to praise, honor, and glory at the revelation of Jesus Christ,8 whom having not seen[a] you love. Though now you do not see Him, yet believing, you rejoice with joy inexpressible and full of glory, 9 receiving the end of your faith—the salvation of your souls." - 1 Peter 1:3-9
May the Son of God find faith in our hearts at His coming! He is the author and the finisher of our faith. We can trust Him to keep what we have entrusted to Him until that day. He's faithful to our hearts, He is faithful to the end!
Romans 8:
38 For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, 39 nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
1 Timothy 1:
6 Therefore I remind you to stir up the gift of God which is in you through the laying on of my hands. 7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
8 Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me His prisoner, but share with me in the sufferings for the gospel according to the power of God, 9 who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began, 10 but has now been revealed by the appearing of our Savior Jesus Christ, who has abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel, 11 to which I was appointed a preacher, an apostle, and a teacher of the Gentiles.[b] 12 For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day.
13 Hold fast the pattern of sound words which you have heard from me, in faith and love which are in Christ Jesus. 14 That good thing which was committed to you, keep by the Holy Spirit who dwells in us.
8 Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me His prisoner, but share with me in the sufferings for the gospel according to the power of God, 9 who has saved us and called us with a holy calling, not according to our works, but according to His own purpose and grace which was given to us in Christ Jesus before time began, 10 but has now been revealed by the appearing of our Savior Jesus Christ, who has abolished death and brought life and immortality to light through the gospel, 11 to which I was appointed a preacher, an apostle, and a teacher of the Gentiles.[b] 12 For this reason I also suffer these things; nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day.
13 Hold fast the pattern of sound words which you have heard from me, in faith and love which are in Christ Jesus. 14 That good thing which was committed to you, keep by the Holy Spirit who dwells in us.
In this partnership He has invited us into, it is our part to abide in Him, and let His Words abide in us (John 15:7)--to hold fast to the truth. But it's the Holy Spirit that enables us--we must depend more upon Him than ourselves! The Lord has sent the Holy Spirit on assignment to us for our sanctification by the truth. And He did it all for us according to His purpose and grace!
So let us encourage one another in these things daily and even more as we see that Day approaching...- Hebrews 3:13!
He's for us, not against us. He's committed to bringing forth His purposes in our life. May we cling to Him, and not let go! He won't let us go! He promises to always be there for us, in times of prosperity and in times of difficulty. He's able to work it all out for our good if we let Him!
I can't believe how much it changes things when I read and declare His Word--so often I've neglected i--but it's the good news we need to hear every day! We need a constant reminder of His truth and promises for our life--He knew that-- that's why He said to put His Word everywhere! -Deut.6: 6-9. That is His guarantee for our success! And our success is not as the world defines it--it's in having faith in Him-- in loving Him and being loved by Him!
"...nevertheless I am not ashamed, for I know whom I have believed and am persuaded that He is able to keep what I have committed to Him until that Day." -2 Timothy 1:12
"Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it."-1 Thess.5:23-24
"Now may the God of peace Himself sanctify you completely; and may your whole spirit, soul, and body be preserved blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. 24 He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it."-1 Thess.5:23-24
Saturday, May 4, 2013
Prophetic Word- (around Feb.2012)-IHOP-KC
At dance practice we each released a prophetic movement with no music for less than a minute, and then shared what we saw prophetically in that person's movement. The words that were given to me in my movement, (which I didn't expect to get) were "Warrior Bride, Perseverance, Hungry, You won't give up until you get it, you'll stop at nothing." These definitely describe the season I've been in!
Our leader shared a word with this and gave us a sheet that had this word on it:
"Our deepest fear is not that we inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
We then had a time for meditation and to write down what we heard from the Lord. I got much more than I was expecting. The word meant so much to me that I put it in my little 'treasury' of other prophetic words I've gotten over the years. Here's what I heard the Lord speak to me:
"You are stunning, there is no flaw in you my love, my dove. My eyes burn for you, I want you to burn with this consuming love. I'm like a huge ocean, there's no limits to my love, no boundaries, no bounds. You are free in it, free to move wherever you want to go. I am etched in your frame, I'm in your very design, I have made you one with me. Let me have your weaknesses, let me have your feelings of inadequacy. You lack nothing in me. Look at me, the one who's inside of you. Do not fear, take my hand. I will lead you, to unknown places of mystery. I want to fascinate your heart--over and over again. Jump into the great ocean before you. Go explore! You will know me when you find me."
"Excitement, expectation, anticipation. Peace. Nothing in the way. Connected, clinging to. Freedom, no chains! A sparkle in your eyes, a smiling heart. " :)
Our leader shared a word with this and gave us a sheet that had this word on it:
"Our deepest fear is not that we inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our fear, our presence automatically liberates others."
We then had a time for meditation and to write down what we heard from the Lord. I got much more than I was expecting. The word meant so much to me that I put it in my little 'treasury' of other prophetic words I've gotten over the years. Here's what I heard the Lord speak to me:
"You are stunning, there is no flaw in you my love, my dove. My eyes burn for you, I want you to burn with this consuming love. I'm like a huge ocean, there's no limits to my love, no boundaries, no bounds. You are free in it, free to move wherever you want to go. I am etched in your frame, I'm in your very design, I have made you one with me. Let me have your weaknesses, let me have your feelings of inadequacy. You lack nothing in me. Look at me, the one who's inside of you. Do not fear, take my hand. I will lead you, to unknown places of mystery. I want to fascinate your heart--over and over again. Jump into the great ocean before you. Go explore! You will know me when you find me."
"Excitement, expectation, anticipation. Peace. Nothing in the way. Connected, clinging to. Freedom, no chains! A sparkle in your eyes, a smiling heart. " :)
Prophecy- unknown date-(around summer/fall 2012)
The Lord said to me: "Daughter, you have chosen the good part. It will not be taken away from you. But you can give it away, you can choose something else. You can choose to let other things take this place, this space."
Prophecy Rooms at IHOP-KC
"In the past you thought that God was unfair with you, but you've developed a fear of the Lord as you've gotten to know Him, that He is an all merciful, just God."
Amos 9
"You won't be doubting the Lord, you'll be confident, you'll keep getting stronger and stronger. "
"A white piece of cloth being wrung out. You've said yes to Him in every way. He's tested and tried you because you want to be used by Him. He's going to keep dipping you in the clean water and wringing you out"- The Lord also spoke to me from this word about the cloth in relation to a previous prophecy of me being like a sponge. He showed me that a cloth is bigger than a sponge, it can hold more water, it has more uses. It can be joined together with other pieces of cloth. It can be painted on, decorated. It can be used to tend to wounds. It can be used to cover.
"Butterflies- they're a caterpillar all their life and then they cocoon themselves. They're low as they crawl around. Then they fly around and feed on nectar." Different stages of development-times of rest, times of flying.
"A cross-road--there's a road less traveled that the Lord is highlighting, but there's a fear you won't be strong enough. You can find His joy in those places that others won't go because it's a gift, not just your personality. He's going to take you places where others wouldn't go because of fear of rejection, because they're spirits would be crushed. But yours will not because of this deep joy He's put in you.
God wants to intoxicate you with His love. He's becoming the lover of your soul--"
Song of Solomon 5:2-8
"burst into dance, and be undignified and others will be raptured into His love"
Micah 4:2
"You're going to go up the mountain and you're going to take others with you because of your rapturous joy--it's not just for you. Abandonment and no fear of man will bring you into that realm of deliverance in dance.
Revelation 2
Hidden manna to eat. Leading people into repentance and into the glory and riches of the Lord, out of the worldly things and into the glory of the Lord.
A picture of two mountains and a valley with shade, and white rocks to the right.
Prophecy Rooms at IHOP-KC
"In the past you thought that God was unfair with you, but you've developed a fear of the Lord as you've gotten to know Him, that He is an all merciful, just God."
Amos 9
"You won't be doubting the Lord, you'll be confident, you'll keep getting stronger and stronger. "
"A white piece of cloth being wrung out. You've said yes to Him in every way. He's tested and tried you because you want to be used by Him. He's going to keep dipping you in the clean water and wringing you out"- The Lord also spoke to me from this word about the cloth in relation to a previous prophecy of me being like a sponge. He showed me that a cloth is bigger than a sponge, it can hold more water, it has more uses. It can be joined together with other pieces of cloth. It can be painted on, decorated. It can be used to tend to wounds. It can be used to cover.
"Butterflies- they're a caterpillar all their life and then they cocoon themselves. They're low as they crawl around. Then they fly around and feed on nectar." Different stages of development-times of rest, times of flying.
"A cross-road--there's a road less traveled that the Lord is highlighting, but there's a fear you won't be strong enough. You can find His joy in those places that others won't go because it's a gift, not just your personality. He's going to take you places where others wouldn't go because of fear of rejection, because they're spirits would be crushed. But yours will not because of this deep joy He's put in you.
God wants to intoxicate you with His love. He's becoming the lover of your soul--"
Song of Solomon 5:2-8
"burst into dance, and be undignified and others will be raptured into His love"
Micah 4:2
"You're going to go up the mountain and you're going to take others with you because of your rapturous joy--it's not just for you. Abandonment and no fear of man will bring you into that realm of deliverance in dance.
Revelation 2
Hidden manna to eat. Leading people into repentance and into the glory and riches of the Lord, out of the worldly things and into the glory of the Lord.
A picture of two mountains and a valley with shade, and white rocks to the right.
Crazy prophetic dreams from Chrissy Kohler-major confirmations from the Lord
12/28/2011
From Chrissy Kohler:
"So when I was praying, I seen a picture that I have never seen before or ever. I seen the Lord's arm stretched out (it was like a Father who holds a child like a football where the legs are dangling) and I noticed that the child was you. He was holding you like a child in His arm. He was holding you close to His chest and His heart. You hear His heartbeat, and what I also seen was He is carrying you through this season! He's carrying you and you don't have to do it alone or carry yourself. Also, the child represented Him restoring your child-like faith. You are going to have faith like a child and joy like a child. He's restoring. "
ACTS School Confirmation:
"For the past several weeks the Lord has been putting the word: Acts or the Book of Acts everywhere. When stuff like this happens I know it's for someone or somebody. Thinking and praying who its for- thinking someone around here. For weeks straight Acts would show up. Whether it would be I flipped my bible open to Acts.. Or walk into store and the word Acts is bolded.. To getting coffee mugs with acts verse on it.. To getting impressed by the Lord to even read the Book of Acts. It was everywhere and everytime I turned around. Finally I am like okay Lord who is this for. It was crazy. So two nights ago the Lord impressed on my heart (in middle of night) to start going through words I have gotten. Not thinking of anything I was reading the words and prayers we have prayed for each other and you spoke into my life. And that made me think I wonder how this girl is and wonder if she's still in KC. And I would randomly cross your name when this acts thing was going on in my phone. So two nights ago I had a dream. I had a dream we were together at KC. I was doing fire in the night and you were doing some Acts class. An awakening was happening. So I woke up out of that dream questioning: does ihopkc have an acts class? So in middle of night i hopped on the internet and long behold they had an acts class. I was like woah. And a major thing too that stuck out in the dream was your heart. On the heart was written the word LIFE. I was like woah. Because going back when I was reading the words you have given me. On a small piece of paper during a conference you passed me a note and it was a big heart on the page with the word LIFE written on it. And on the back an Acts verse. Then im like woah. So i was thinking for a day I wonder if this girl still has same number. So by faith was scared to text the number (wasnt going to because my first thought was I don't want to bother her she probably doesn't remember me) so I texted and woah. Ha. Then you mentioned about the acts course and i literally almost passed out haha and then you called. Ha."
Inner Healing Confirmation: (I had been asking the Lord how was I do missions when I'm still so broken?)
"The dream started where I was like the "outside" person in the dream, but I was seeing everything that was going on. I was seeing everything that was happening, and in the dream all I could do was weep. What I was seeing through my eyes was your house, and household and family. I seen you were in the corner weeping. You were balling your eyes out, scared, and hurt. I knew it was you because all of the physical features that I know of you to be was you. Also, there were parts where you were younger than you are now that I seen you in the corner, and also seen you as present age as of today. To the left in the corner of my eye, I saw what seem to be your mother. It was a latina lady, I knew she was latina because only of her mannerisms, the way she talked to you, and she was even yelling in spanish. She was speaking hurtful things, a lot of emotional abuse and verbal abuse. Then I seen a huge light come to your corner and I seen Jesus. Jesus was trying to get you to STAND firm and he was holding you blocking every dart, ever negative word, every abuse. He blocked it all. Finally He picked you up and was holding you to stand. Then I seen the Lord pull up EXTREMELY deep roots as He was holding you. What was extremely clear were the roots, they seriously looked like roots and they were so detailed. He was pulling up and rooting out the roots of bitterness, anger, past shame, hurts, emotional and physical abuses, etc those were some that were highlighted, and then He set you standing and you gave your mom a hug and I woke up."
From Chrissy Kohler:
"So when I was praying, I seen a picture that I have never seen before or ever. I seen the Lord's arm stretched out (it was like a Father who holds a child like a football where the legs are dangling) and I noticed that the child was you. He was holding you like a child in His arm. He was holding you close to His chest and His heart. You hear His heartbeat, and what I also seen was He is carrying you through this season! He's carrying you and you don't have to do it alone or carry yourself. Also, the child represented Him restoring your child-like faith. You are going to have faith like a child and joy like a child. He's restoring. "
ACTS School Confirmation:
"For the past several weeks the Lord has been putting the word: Acts or the Book of Acts everywhere. When stuff like this happens I know it's for someone or somebody. Thinking and praying who its for- thinking someone around here. For weeks straight Acts would show up. Whether it would be I flipped my bible open to Acts.. Or walk into store and the word Acts is bolded.. To getting coffee mugs with acts verse on it.. To getting impressed by the Lord to even read the Book of Acts. It was everywhere and everytime I turned around. Finally I am like okay Lord who is this for. It was crazy. So two nights ago the Lord impressed on my heart (in middle of night) to start going through words I have gotten. Not thinking of anything I was reading the words and prayers we have prayed for each other and you spoke into my life. And that made me think I wonder how this girl is and wonder if she's still in KC. And I would randomly cross your name when this acts thing was going on in my phone. So two nights ago I had a dream. I had a dream we were together at KC. I was doing fire in the night and you were doing some Acts class. An awakening was happening. So I woke up out of that dream questioning: does ihopkc have an acts class? So in middle of night i hopped on the internet and long behold they had an acts class. I was like woah. And a major thing too that stuck out in the dream was your heart. On the heart was written the word LIFE. I was like woah. Because going back when I was reading the words you have given me. On a small piece of paper during a conference you passed me a note and it was a big heart on the page with the word LIFE written on it. And on the back an Acts verse. Then im like woah. So i was thinking for a day I wonder if this girl still has same number. So by faith was scared to text the number (wasnt going to because my first thought was I don't want to bother her she probably doesn't remember me) so I texted and woah. Ha. Then you mentioned about the acts course and i literally almost passed out haha and then you called. Ha."
Inner Healing Confirmation: (I had been asking the Lord how was I do missions when I'm still so broken?)
"The dream started where I was like the "outside" person in the dream, but I was seeing everything that was going on. I was seeing everything that was happening, and in the dream all I could do was weep. What I was seeing through my eyes was your house, and household and family. I seen you were in the corner weeping. You were balling your eyes out, scared, and hurt. I knew it was you because all of the physical features that I know of you to be was you. Also, there were parts where you were younger than you are now that I seen you in the corner, and also seen you as present age as of today. To the left in the corner of my eye, I saw what seem to be your mother. It was a latina lady, I knew she was latina because only of her mannerisms, the way she talked to you, and she was even yelling in spanish. She was speaking hurtful things, a lot of emotional abuse and verbal abuse. Then I seen a huge light come to your corner and I seen Jesus. Jesus was trying to get you to STAND firm and he was holding you blocking every dart, ever negative word, every abuse. He blocked it all. Finally He picked you up and was holding you to stand. Then I seen the Lord pull up EXTREMELY deep roots as He was holding you. What was extremely clear were the roots, they seriously looked like roots and they were so detailed. He was pulling up and rooting out the roots of bitterness, anger, past shame, hurts, emotional and physical abuses, etc those were some that were highlighted, and then He set you standing and you gave your mom a hug and I woke up."
Unfulfilled dreams
11/19/2012
2 Corinthians 8:10-12
A word from the Lord confirming my desire for ACTS school and missions, that I will complete the desire I've had. A dream (literally, in the night) to not postpone my dreams to be used by Him in ministry.
Grace upon grace--undeserved favor to do what you are incapable of doing on your own.
The Lord had given me a revelation a couple years back about Jesus' years before His ministry, and that there were dreams and desires He had been carrying in His heart for a long time, that He longed for the day when they would be fulfilled. Recently he spoke to me and showed me that just like Jesus had carried the dream in His heart to die for His beloved ones, to redeem them--to bring them back to the Father--all those years leading up to His crucifixion, that this was burning in His heart, so has He been carrying the dream of His return to marry His beloved bride. The Lord encourage my heart--that He knows and understands the pain of unfulfilled dreams and desires!
As I heard the song being sung, "he will come, riding on the clouds, with fire in His eyes, and justice in His heart..." this song arose in my spirit:
"how long have you had that day in your heart, how long have you had that dream in your heart? How long have you carried it? You long to fulfill it..."
There is this same cry for justice that was in Jesus, growing and increasing in His people. And He promises that He will answer-- the just Judge of the earth will come, with a sword upon His side, and He will fulfill everything that He has spoken and promised. It is in His heart, and His zeal will accomplish it. Let us hasten His coming as we cry out, "Maranatha, Come Lord Jesus, Come!"
2 Corinthians 8:10-12
A word from the Lord confirming my desire for ACTS school and missions, that I will complete the desire I've had. A dream (literally, in the night) to not postpone my dreams to be used by Him in ministry.
Grace upon grace--undeserved favor to do what you are incapable of doing on your own.
The Lord had given me a revelation a couple years back about Jesus' years before His ministry, and that there were dreams and desires He had been carrying in His heart for a long time, that He longed for the day when they would be fulfilled. Recently he spoke to me and showed me that just like Jesus had carried the dream in His heart to die for His beloved ones, to redeem them--to bring them back to the Father--all those years leading up to His crucifixion, that this was burning in His heart, so has He been carrying the dream of His return to marry His beloved bride. The Lord encourage my heart--that He knows and understands the pain of unfulfilled dreams and desires!
As I heard the song being sung, "he will come, riding on the clouds, with fire in His eyes, and justice in His heart..." this song arose in my spirit:
"how long have you had that day in your heart, how long have you had that dream in your heart? How long have you carried it? You long to fulfill it..."
There is this same cry for justice that was in Jesus, growing and increasing in His people. And He promises that He will answer-- the just Judge of the earth will come, with a sword upon His side, and He will fulfill everything that He has spoken and promised. It is in His heart, and His zeal will accomplish it. Let us hasten His coming as we cry out, "Maranatha, Come Lord Jesus, Come!"
A call to relationship
April 2013
The other night I felt like the Lord took me in my mind to the story of the prodigal son, and showed me this independent spirit in the son that's also in me. He was a son in the Father's house, but didn't know all of the Father. He knew that his Father was gracious and merciful and forgiving, and that he could return to Him and be accepted back into His house even after his rebellion. But he thought that he would have to take the position of a slave, which was probably the very belief/attitude he had all along and that drove him away in the first place. And his brother had this same belief, not understanding his identity as a son, but thinking he had to serve His father and be good enough in order to earn something from Him. He was angry when his repentful brother returned and the Father lavished him with the best He had, and said, "Lo, these many years I have been serving you; I never transgressed your commandment at any time; and yet you never gave me..." (Luke 15:28)
The first son had demanded from the Father what was to be given to him at an appointed time. He was saying, 'Give me my inheritance now. Give me the lot that belongs to me.' The Lord let me see that I've had this same demanding attitude with Him (which I've sometimes mistaken as 'faith'). I've said, "Healing is my inheritance in Christ. It is rightfully mine, because I'm a son, a daughter in your house. Why won't you give it to me now? I've labored for it, I've committed myself to serve you, and I must be healed to be used by you to bring your salvation to the nations, to the peoples that do not know you." There's that prospect of a far-off land that the son had too. Relationship was not a priority for the son, but rather the individual needs/desires he had. He probably saw no need to cleave to his Father--to mature, to nurture an identity. There was something he saw that was better and more important that allured him away, and he saw no need to wait for it. 'I want it now.' But he was immature, and wasted it all in a short time. He had no ability to steward it rightly. His priorities were wrong, he was driven by selfish motives. There was a need for him to stay, to abide, to learn trust and dependence on Abba. Demanding our individual rights, thinking that we can take something that 'belongs to us' and that we can go use it as we think fit, doesn't come from a identity of sonship, but a slave mentality--one that has to beg and strive for it. I saw this in myself, that I haven't wanted to just abide and wait, except when it's easy.
John 15:15- "I call you not servants, for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth.."
But He sent the Spirit of His Son into our hearts by which we cry 'Abba! Father!' When our identity is fully rooted in Him, we won't be so swayed by the opinions of man and the ways of the world. Abba says 'stay near to me, let me take care of you, I will teach you of My ways and lead you in my paths of righteousness..."
The other night I felt like the Lord took me in my mind to the story of the prodigal son, and showed me this independent spirit in the son that's also in me. He was a son in the Father's house, but didn't know all of the Father. He knew that his Father was gracious and merciful and forgiving, and that he could return to Him and be accepted back into His house even after his rebellion. But he thought that he would have to take the position of a slave, which was probably the very belief/attitude he had all along and that drove him away in the first place. And his brother had this same belief, not understanding his identity as a son, but thinking he had to serve His father and be good enough in order to earn something from Him. He was angry when his repentful brother returned and the Father lavished him with the best He had, and said, "Lo, these many years I have been serving you; I never transgressed your commandment at any time; and yet you never gave me..." (Luke 15:28)
The first son had demanded from the Father what was to be given to him at an appointed time. He was saying, 'Give me my inheritance now. Give me the lot that belongs to me.' The Lord let me see that I've had this same demanding attitude with Him (which I've sometimes mistaken as 'faith'). I've said, "Healing is my inheritance in Christ. It is rightfully mine, because I'm a son, a daughter in your house. Why won't you give it to me now? I've labored for it, I've committed myself to serve you, and I must be healed to be used by you to bring your salvation to the nations, to the peoples that do not know you." There's that prospect of a far-off land that the son had too. Relationship was not a priority for the son, but rather the individual needs/desires he had. He probably saw no need to cleave to his Father--to mature, to nurture an identity. There was something he saw that was better and more important that allured him away, and he saw no need to wait for it. 'I want it now.' But he was immature, and wasted it all in a short time. He had no ability to steward it rightly. His priorities were wrong, he was driven by selfish motives. There was a need for him to stay, to abide, to learn trust and dependence on Abba. Demanding our individual rights, thinking that we can take something that 'belongs to us' and that we can go use it as we think fit, doesn't come from a identity of sonship, but a slave mentality--one that has to beg and strive for it. I saw this in myself, that I haven't wanted to just abide and wait, except when it's easy.
John 15:15- "I call you not servants, for the servant knoweth not what his lord doeth.."
But He sent the Spirit of His Son into our hearts by which we cry 'Abba! Father!' When our identity is fully rooted in Him, we won't be so swayed by the opinions of man and the ways of the world. Abba says 'stay near to me, let me take care of you, I will teach you of My ways and lead you in my paths of righteousness..."
Prophetic word about accusation- 2012
There's been a fear of being perceived poorly by others, of not measuring up or being rejected. But the Lord says that He sees past the exterior perceptions of others, and He sees into my heart, He sees the good desires, and He hears the 'yes' in my heart. He says, "All you see is your brokenness, a struggle, your failures--but I see you're a fighter, I see where you're going." Misty Edwards song, "I knew what I was getting into when I called you." The Lord speaks destiny over us when we feel like a failure. He knows our tendency to see the bad in us and fail to see the good--to see what He sees. I felt like He gave me a glimpse that day on the beach when He came near to my heart and affirmed His pleasure in my desire and effort for obedience.
He said, "Don't focus on all your mess ups, shortcomings, failures, imperfections, what you don't have, your weaknesses, your flaws, etc. You've got to take your eyes off these and look at ME so you can hear the good things I'm saying about you."
The Lord wants to affirm me, the good, the right things I'm doing. He wants to affirm me as His daughter, how He loves me and delights in me, and how He's pleased with who I am, the way He's made me.
He also wants me to do the same for these kids, to call out their worth and value, how precious they are to Him. To affirm them, to point out the good things I see--to focus more on those. But I can't do this for them if I don't do it for myself. He also wants me to do the same with my mom, to affirm the good things I see in her. (But I can only love them and accept others this way, if I love and accept myself--Love your neighbor as yourself).
03/26/2012
The Lord brought another mother in the Lord to bless me tonight and release more of the emotional pain related to the lies of lack/insufficiency/failure/rejection/weakness/shame.
He wants me to journal the history of His faithfulness and remember what He's done for me and testify about it. In this way, I will shut the mouth of accusation. Wear your armor, rise up with praise and worship to defeat your goliaths--they declare lies about who God is that defile you. Do not be in agreement with accusation against yourself and against His children--you are agreeing with the enemy! Blaming is accusing. 'Judge not, lest you be judged..'
The battlefield is in the mind--when we agree with lies, we're losing the battle! When we agree with truth by faith, we defeat our enemy!
LOVE is the most powerful weapon we have against the kingdom of darkness. Love is the key in spiritual warfare. The enemy cannot stand against it.
"You belong with those who belong with Daddy."
"Those expectations man's put on you, they're a heavy weight you were never meant to bear. I've called you to walk in the freedom of my pleasure--my will is pleasing, it is good. It's not a heavy burden, it's not a heavy weight."
"Come all ye who are weary and heavy-ladened, and I shall give you rest. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light..."
Isaiah 31:4-6
I came across this scripture after a dream I'd had of me in this room, and there was a lion roaming about in this room! It kept nudging me and brushing up against me, and wouldn't leave me alone. No one in the room was concerned about it or scared of it, but I was scared it was all of a sudden going to attack me. I perceived it to be a danger, but no one else saw it as a threat. I finally decided I was getting out of there and I fled from it and left.
I think through this scripture the Lord is saying He will defend me, as a shepherd who defends His sheep, and He will deliver me from the lions that seek to devour me. Though my enemies surround me on all sides, He will defend AND deliver me from them all--He IS the LION of Judah, He's the MIGHTY ONE!
Very timely prophecy at IHOP, Sept.2012
09/26/2012- IHOP Prophecy Rooms
The scripture Jeremiah 40:4 (the Lord had given me this verse in 2005 when I was fasting about missions shortly after receiving the call, asking the Lord where He would send me. I was walking through the Chapel Hill campus on a very windy day. I was becoming desperate for God to speak to me, and cried out to the Lord. I opened my Bible, and stood there as the wind blew the pages, until all of a sudden it stopped. I looked down and saw Jeremiah 40:4, "See, all the land is before you; wherever it seems good and convenient for you to go, go there."
"A discerning spirit, setting the captives free; the chains being broken off your hands-things that have had you bound for years. I see you saying "No!" fighting in the Spirit, saying this IS my portion--the freedom! Your spirit of discernment is strong, knowing when the Lord says 'go here, or don't go there'."
"Incense is going up to heaven, you've cried out over and over again. He hears your prayer and will answer them.
James 5:17-18
Your prayers are beginning to break through, He will answer."
"A plant that's growing (it's you)--the Lord has given you a prophetic gifting that's being cultivated in a hidden place."
"The Word of the Lord will come to release you to do things. I feel like much of what you will do will be a ministry of power. "
"I saw you cooking-from the heart--a gift of hospitality. You want to buy significant gifts for people, not just anything. 'Hospital'-touching people's hearts with healing. "
"I see in you kindness- fruits of the Spirit -kindness with strength--you won't back down. 'In gentleness and quietness is your strength'-Hosea 2:22-23."
"God will sow-you being scattered like lots of seed- where He sows you, you will spring up and bear fruit for Him. You don't need plan A, B or C--He's got it."
"I see lots of questions over you. He says it's ok to ask Him the tough questions that we don't like to ask. He says I love your questions. The book of Job. The Lord points you to trust Him as the all sovereign, powerful Creator. End times questions-'I don't want to be offended, ahhh!'. Talk with me, He says, this is relationship. "
"A rainbow of reminder saying He has not forgotten those things, and you are not forgotten. Don't get weary in the waiting period because He's doing stuff."
(He'd shown me a rainbow as I was leaving the beach in Wilmington that summer after a powerful time of encounter & joyful fellowship with Him, & my heart was sad to leave, but He showed me this rainbow & said, "See, I've promised you, I've made a covenant with you. You'll come back here. I won't abandon you, nor the work I'm doing in you."-I was in total awe!)
09/17/12
2 Corinthians 1:8; 4:16
2 Cor. 4:8- "[We are] troubled on every side, yet not distressed; [we are] perplexed, but not in despair."
"Do not despair, do not give in to despair--hold on to the hope of who He is--to the TRUTH."
"A dark seed in me He is removing." (a time of darkness/depression in my life came to mind. Desperation taking over-shutting down inside and disconnecting from the outside world-rejected myself ad others and retreated into isolation.)
09/19- An intense emotional breakdown after leaving the prayer room and biking to FCF for the service. I cried in despair to the Lord for an answer. 'Are you healer or not? Are you present in the midst of suffering or not? Will you answer or not?' I fell down on my knees in the parking lot and broke down weeping and wailing in emotional pain. Afterwards it felt like something had shutdown on the inside of me--I felt numb/empty and disconnected from the Lord. Like hope had left.
04/24/2013- Harp and Bowl at King of Glory Church-Asheville, NC
As they were singing, "He's gonna turn it all around, just wait and see. He's gonna make everything beautiful just in time,"
this song arose in my spirit: "Just when it seemed like I was at the end, ready to give up, when I'd run out of hope, when I'd lost strength, He came and He picked me up and stood me on my feet, and He gave me hope for a new day."
The Lord spoke to me, "the fiery darts/arrows from the enemy that have struck us--they pierce us and get stuck in us. And it's more painful to pull them out then it was went they went in, or to leave them there. But they must be removed in order for us to heal. If they remain, they will slowly weaken and debilitate us, gradually killing us."
Key prophecies given to me: 2004-2010
Prophecy from church in Burlington- 2005- 18 yrs old
A lady speaking, she saw in my face, a countenance of peace and joy, a refreshing countenance
A real passion for God, so strong she felt like she was going to burst
“You hang on every word, you delight yourself in Him, and He delights in you as well.”
Sometimes you feel different from other people, that people don’t understand you, but God understands you, He’s made you a very special way, uniquely you.
I saw you as a sponge and you just soak up everything that God says, everything you read, that you hear about the Lord, that He speaks to you. But you’re a sponge that never reaches its saturation point, you just keep filling up and filling up.
Sometime in the future you may say, ok Lord, what do you want me to do with all of this that I’ve been soaking up, who do you want me to talk to, what do you want me to do with my life? But the Lord is saying just keep soaking up, you’re a sponge that will never be saturated. But there is going to come a day when you’re going to be so full and you’ll be out different places and the Lord will just touch the sponge and there’ll be some living water that comes out that will minister to people around you in a variety of different ways. It will be refreshing water. People will bump up against you as the sponge and the water that comes forth is going to refresh that person or minister to them or heal them or speak a word in season.”
“God is going to use you in a church plant in a key way. You’re going to hear about it and its going to stir in your spirit and you’ll come along side people to start a new work somewhere. You’ll be a key person. I thought maybe you were going to be the worship leader or something, but I know it’s a church plant.”
“I see a vision of Satan really trying to kill your walk in God. You’re on round 2. You’ve been through a time when you could have said, I could leave this, like a desert. I saw Satan try to drive a knife right into your spine to stop you and paralyze you. And you’ve pressed through that, you didn’t let it stop you. You’ve redecided to press into God. God’s been teaching you that Satan’s not in control. Job said, “NO PURPOSE OF GOD CAN BE THWARTED.” God’s written over you, “No purpose of Mine can be thwarted in Hillary.” You’ve seen what your part is, to believe God. You’re coming into a time where God is going to use you. You have a period of training coming up, a period of activation. I see the door opening, you’re going to begin to really have an entrance into people’s hearts. Don’t be bashful or backward. Walk right in, it will be an open, effective door. God is going to begin to use you now. You passed the test. Most of this Christian life is about passing tests. God waits for that. He did it with Abraham, He does it with us. You’ve gone through this thing, you could have gotten mad, you could have stopped your walk or let this thing paralyze you, but you didn’t.”
8/12/2006
“One of the things when I saw you here last night, I looked at you at the immediate word I got was, “Capacity.” There’s nothing you can’t do, no challenge you can’t meet. God has given you the stuff. From a personality stand point, He’s given to you in your soul, your emotions, you’re smart, you have the ability to unravel things quickly. Even with that capacity, you wonder if it’s enough, that’s a constant question in your life. Is it enough? Is a gallon enough? Is 5 gallons enough? Is 5 min. of prayer enough, one hour of study enough? You have these nagging questions of performance around your life of is it enough? God says I’ve given you amazing capacity, I’ve given you all that you need. You’ve found yourself coming to the end of yourself in a number of different settings, yet it’s like when your gas gage gets down, you feel like your light’s on, but you’re continuing to drive. And you’re not running out. It doesn’t make sense in the natural, yet we’re continuing to go. There’s going to be a part of your life that you would love to be marked by excess, yet God says I’m going to take you to the light coming on many times and show you what’s really in reserve, what’s in capacity. God’s going to call you to step out in faith. You’re going to find yourself out there in a number of different times in your life. It’s not going to be situation to situation, it’s going to be a lifestyle of faith. You’re going to be one of those that’s going to go out there and live on the edge. “Play on the edge, less crowded, better view.” It really describes the life of faith. Most people don’t want to get that far out there in how they live their life. There’s almost a pioneering spirit inside of you. You’re the kind of person that doesn’t accept the status quo, you’re like I’ve got to find out for myself. I’ve got to go see it, I’ve got to put my feet there, I’ve got to touch it, I’ve got to experience it. You’re a kinesthetic learner, you can’t just take someone’s word for it. You’ve got to show me, and I’ve got to go. You’re going to be going for most of your life. But you’re not going to run out. God is many times going to supernaturally meet you at the very last moment. Enjoy it, don’t fight against it. Sometimes you fight against it, you struggle against some of the places. You say, God why can’t it just be a little easier, why can’t I have a little more notice, God says just work with it. Creative things in you. You’re a tremendous communicator. You have a real gift of communicating in writing. I think in years to come there are books that He’s going to want you to write. In the meantime, whether it’s a blog or a lengthy email, you have a gift with words. God wants you to continue to use that and develop it as much as you can. You’re going to be surprised in Spain, its not what you expect. You’re going to pick up another clue there. Your life is like a scavenger hunt, from place to place you pick up clues. It’s a lot of fun. What a fun young lady. It’s enough, it’s enough, in Jesus name.”
01/12/2008- Prophecy at ZHOP in Charlotte
“You are like Miriam in Exodus 15:20. You will dance before the Lord, you are a prophetess in that sense because your dance will be a prophetic dance, a dance of deliverance and joy”
“In wars in the Old Testament they would send out singers and dancers first as the trumpet call to start the war they were the ones that fought the first battle. The Lord is going to use that in you to declare the things of the Lord and make war with dance.”
Sept.2012- from Jessie Zecharias in IHOP-KC prayer room
"Hillary, I don't think it was coincidence that we ran into each other tonight. I have never come to this set, and usually don't dance, but the Lord had something else planned tonight. Your dancing provokes me to go deeper in my own intimacy with Jesus. Your confidence is clearly out of an overflow of a completely give-to-God heart. When you were first dancing, it looked like you were striking flint, starting small fires in the Spirit, and now, when you're dancing with the blue-green scarf, I can see that it is making waves in the Spirit. Your faithfulness is apparent. Thank you for continuing to steward your dancing for the Lord. I truly feel that He is using you in remarkable ways. I got Isaiah 63:2 for you, "Why is your apparel red, and Your garments like one who treads in the winepress?" Even though this verse is clearly about Jesus, it reminds me of the fruit of actively walking in the righteousness bought by His blood--You can see it. Bless you!" Jessie
Sept.2012- from Jessie Zecharias in IHOP-KC prayer room
"Hillary, I don't think it was coincidence that we ran into each other tonight. I have never come to this set, and usually don't dance, but the Lord had something else planned tonight. Your dancing provokes me to go deeper in my own intimacy with Jesus. Your confidence is clearly out of an overflow of a completely give-to-God heart. When you were first dancing, it looked like you were striking flint, starting small fires in the Spirit, and now, when you're dancing with the blue-green scarf, I can see that it is making waves in the Spirit. Your faithfulness is apparent. Thank you for continuing to steward your dancing for the Lord. I truly feel that He is using you in remarkable ways. I got Isaiah 63:2 for you, "Why is your apparel red, and Your garments like one who treads in the winepress?" Even though this verse is clearly about Jesus, it reminds me of the fruit of actively walking in the righteousness bought by His blood--You can see it. Bless you!" Jessie
Song of Songs 1:15- “You have dove’s eyes, it means you’re focused on one thing. The Lord sees your heart, even though you feel like you have so many distractions, he sees that your heart is focused on him.”
“Let her see as you see God, that you see her heart and that she is focused on you and that all the distractions would fade away.”
Song of Solomon 2:14- “The Lord loves to hear you speak to him, to sing to him. He loves to see your face, to come to him. There’s a gracing on your life to encounter Him in the secret place.”
Prayer: “You love her voice and her face, it moves heaven. You have authority on your prayers, you have a voice in heaven. What you feel is a small prayer here on earth echoes in the heavenlies and moves the heart of the King. The power of your voice, it delights you to answer your daughter.”
08/08/2010 Catch the Fire Church
A vision of me like an Indian chief woman on a horse going out to slay beasts and bringing home the game and providing a big feast that satisfies. I’m going to rest well because it is a long work day. That’s all I can remember spoken to me, but I understood this prophecy as a word for FEI at IHOP, that I’ll be warring in the spirit realm against spiritual giants and will be victorious and will rest well while I’m there, which was my main fear/concern about the living situation I’ll be in there, sharing a room with someone and having 2 other roommates. There was also a young man there I prophesied to and strangely he looked a lot like my brother. The words he spoke encouraged me and I felt like the Lord was reaffirming that he hears my heart cry and prayers, but it’s not up to me, that I’m not responsible for his salvation. The verse in 2 Cor 10:1-5 had come to mind and I felt like the Lord was reminding me to continue to appeal to him with gentleness and meekness.
08/12/2010
Nehemiah
Rebuilding the walls
A longing for Jerusalem
08/21/2010
IHOP-KC: A word from Kaytee Brown
1 Samuel 1- A double portion. Prayer out of deep joy and sorrow. Hannah’s desire was so strong it caused her great distress
Isaiah 54:5-6
No more shame or disgrace, no fear of being uncovered
The words sheath and covering (tallit-what a husband covers his wife with)
Root meaning of sheath (from blueletterbible.com):
- razor
- sheath (of a sword)
- Making naked, emptying. A razor (a naked, thin plate, making the skin bare) Numbers 6:5, Isaiah 7:20. A writer’s pen-knife, with which he sharpens his reed, Jeremiah 36:23
- The sheath of a sword 1 Sam 17:51, Ezekial 21:8,10, Jer 47:6. The sheath is an empty shell without the sword
“Do not be discouraged, don’t overexert yourself, rest in the Lord, He is your Shalom.
08/22/2010
First day of FEI at IHOP-KC
You’re like a stone in the bag of David. It was all about you with the Lord on the mountaintop and he broke the tip off and it rolled down the mountain. You’ve been tumbling and rolling. You’ve gone through a season that was hard. The stone rolled into the river and you’ve felt stuck on the bottom. When the rain came again the river moved and took you along. He’s been bringing you closer and closer to himself for him to pick up and put you in His bag, for it will come time to rise up and shut the Phillistine’s mouth! You were raggedy and jagged when picked up from the stream and He’s smoothing you into a stone, you’re becoming artillery, Hillary!
I heard missions, in Chile, Peru, Brazil. Some of the most precious gems/stones come from the mountains of these countries.
10/24/2010
Prophecy at Laurie’s house
Acts 19:2- Did you receive the Holy Spirit when you believed?
“I believe that God has equipped you, that He’s given you a mighty gift, the gift of discernment. Other people walk in suspicion but God has given you the gift of discernment, the discerning of spirits. God is inviting you to come higher in that gift, because right now you can only discern as much of the Scripture as you understand. I believe God is getting ready to, as you receive more and more of the Holy Spirit that you received when you believed, that He’s going to equip you and take you to higher levels because He needs you to discern both good and evil. To do that you’re going to be in like Holy Spirit school. He’s going to ask you to do things that He doesn’t ask everybody else. He’s going to ask like, here you fast this many days this way, read this much of the bible this many days in a row. God is going to, the book that comes to mind is Reese’s Howell’s (?), an intercessor, because that man walked by power of the Holy Spirit and God had unique things for him to do. The gift that God is giving you is so valuable to the church because it’s such a weighty gift. Most people just walk in suspicion and fear, but God is going to build you up and gird you up through the Scriptures that you will be able to hold this gift. God thank you for the gifts that you’ve given to Hillary, a mighty woman with a mighty calling. I pray Lord, help her that the enemy would never be able to trick her. I pray Lord as she grows in this gift that she would walk cautiously before you because this gift is so lacking in the church. I bless her body to carry it, her mind, her heart and her emotions. I pray Lord, shut it off until you turn it on. That would she would not be judging people, but that instead when you turn it on she would be able to rightly divide what it is you want her to say or do.”- Laurie Ditto
Isaiah 43:18- the picture He gave me when I was praying for you was the woman that was caught in adultery and the Lord was drawing the line as she was standing before her accusers and the Lord was standing in front of her. I feel like you’re set apart and that sometimes you’re segregated off from other people and there are a lot of accusations that come against you. The interesting thing is when the Lord was writing in the sand there’s been a lot of speculation about what he wrote but the thing that came to my mind is when he was rebuking Satan and he said, “It is written”. When the Lord writes something, it’s written and it’s done. I feel like whatever He’s written over your life is a done deal and He’s going to fulfill it. He’s calling you forward into a whole new way of thinking and life for you, and he’s calling you out of the accusations, out of the things the enemy has tried to throw against you, and into a place of revelation of the power of God in your life and the love of God over you. That you’re entering into something that you’ve never dreamed of, that you couldn’t of dreamed of in your wildest days. He has a promise for you, that out of you will be rivers of life coming, from the very throne of God. I feel like you’re the Holy Spirit encounter person that’s going to be in places, that the power of God, the Holy Spirit will break forward and cause a shaking in the places. I feel like He’s going to send you because you know what it’s like to be standing alone, you know what it’s like to be in a place that others don’t understand. The Lord is going to use that powerfully to stand there as a witness before God and His power is going to fall in that place and cause a great trembling, a great shaking. And it’s going to unearth a lot of things in people’s hearts. It’s something God has ordained to cause them to look inside themselves, in their own hearts and see what they need to change. He’s using you as a messenger of change and you’re going to be one who is, Holy Spirit is your best friend, walking side by side to bring forth the revelation of a God who is powerful and who loves deeply and who will not put up with the accusations. He will turn the accusations around and cause a people to come to their God with holy trembling and fear. I think you’re going to be used in that way.” –Mike Ditto
Friday, May 3, 2013
Motivated by love
1 Corinthians 13- love as the only thing of true value above all else--more than signs and wonders, more than spiritual gifts, more than sacrifice--the Lord was asking me if I would be willing to lay aside missions and my desires for ministry to cultivate a heart of love and intimacy that will sustain. To learn to abide.
During an awesome worship time recently (04/19/13, I was praying something like this: "Lord I don't want to look clean on the outside and be defiled within. I don't want to be a white-washed tomb (as my friend had termed it). What is it really like to be a son, a daughter of God? What is it like to not be a slave? To not be driven to obey laws, commands, expectations...then the verse came to mind that Jesus spoke: "If you love me, you will obey my commandments," and I heard the Lord say, "It's not obedience first, it's love. That you might be motivated by love, that you would be driven by love, by LOVE, by LOVE, by LOVE! As you grow in love for me, you will grow in obedience. You don't have to strive for perfect obedience. That's why I sent my Son for you! He was perfectly obedient for you. No matter how many times you fall, no matter how many times you fail, I accept you. You are accepted in my Beloved Son." This was an answer to prayer, a question I've asked the Lord many times over several years now. I never understood. I would go in circles wondering, "Lord do I really love you? I'm not even sure I obey you. I feel like I'm failing most of the time. I don't understand your expectations, how can I meet your standards? They're too high. I wanted so badly to love the Lord, but I figured if I didn't always know His will for my life and obey it, then I'd failed at loving Him. Most of the time I'd try to go in the prayer closet I'd feel like I fail at my duty to pray and intercede for others, and I'd get frustrated because I couldn't get past this wall. That wall was probably my own self-righteousness, and I didn't realize that prayer flows from His heart in a connection to ours--He is the One that lives to intercede for us. He showed me that He grows love in my heart for Him as I get to know Him and learn to trust Him. And that its out of this love inside of me for Him, which ultimately comes from a experiential knowledge of His love for me, will flow obedience. I think I'd probably heard this before, but in that moment it became real to me. My heart was overflowing with love for Him, and I felt the pleasure He has in me. Sitting at His feet and receiving from Him--doing nothing--is what has been teaching me this. This past year, as I began to face my brokenness like never before, and my inability to overcome these weaknesses, He had me write down the lies that some of my broken, innermost parts have believed about Him and myself for many years now. Most of these lies I already knew I believed. It's a project I haven't finished, but I knew I had to find the truth in His Word about the painful reality of these wounds and write them out on paper and begin to post them on the wall to look at continually, and make declarations over my life with them. In one of the verses I found for the lie of insufficiency and my inadequacy, He showed me that Jesus was and is the ALL SUFFICIENT, PERFECT offering to God FOR ME. In Leviticus 22:17-25 it says, "And whoever offers a sacrifice of a PEACE OFFERING to the LORD, to FULFILL his vow (covenant promise) or a FREEWILL offering from the cattle of the sheep, it must be PERFECT to be ACCEPTED; there shall be NO DEFECT in it..." And in Hebrews 5:9 it says, "And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him". Jesus became a fragrant offering and pleasing sacrifice (aroma) to God. He is that perfect sacrifice described in Leviticus! He was the fulfillment of the Law and the Prophets. He is the eternal High Priest. It's ok that I can't get it right and that I'm a weak and broken sinner. That's what He died and lived for, to fulfill the righteous requirements of the law that were against me and held me in judgment. He took them away and nailed them to the cross. The Word says the law is a tutor to lead us to Christ. Not so that we can be 'saved' and continue to live under judgment and condemnation, but so that we can be fully accepted in the sight of God! The enemy doesn't want us to understand this, because if we do, we will live as conquerors, living out our potential through the power of Christ in us, rather than as powerless failures unable to be good enough to be accepted by God--(one way we think this is in saying something like this: "I'm such a sinner, how can God possibly really like me or use me for His kingdom when I'm so weak and messed up?"). I may be wrong, but I don't think I'm the only one that's ever thought this. The reason I know, is because it's obvious this is not my own thought--it's from the enemy! It's a statement of condemnation, and Romans 8 says there is therefore now NO CONDEMNATION for those who are in Christ Jesus! But we don't recognize these thoughts as coming from another source, because we hear ourselves think them, we feel they are true, and a part of us actually believes they are true. This is another revelation for another post, and an important key I believe the Lord has begun to reveal to me. But back to the message of this post--the Lord wants us to know: "You do NOT have lack, you are NOT insufficient. You are NOT rejected or turned away." The Father gladly accepts our defected 'freewill offerings' to Him, but our forgiveness and righteousness has been accomplished through the sacrifice of His Son alone. Nothing can be added to it, nothing taken away. We who have believed in the Christ, the Son of the living God, have been stamped and sealed with the King's signet ring, sealed with His love that He has poured into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, and clothed with His holy, royal robe. Praise the Lord! He could have left us as we were, completely unable to change our hopeless state of broken and sinful humanity. But He came to redeem us and restore us to Himself. "Oh wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thank God-- through Jesus Christ our Lord!
During an awesome worship time recently (04/19/13, I was praying something like this: "Lord I don't want to look clean on the outside and be defiled within. I don't want to be a white-washed tomb (as my friend had termed it). What is it really like to be a son, a daughter of God? What is it like to not be a slave? To not be driven to obey laws, commands, expectations...then the verse came to mind that Jesus spoke: "If you love me, you will obey my commandments," and I heard the Lord say, "It's not obedience first, it's love. That you might be motivated by love, that you would be driven by love, by LOVE, by LOVE, by LOVE! As you grow in love for me, you will grow in obedience. You don't have to strive for perfect obedience. That's why I sent my Son for you! He was perfectly obedient for you. No matter how many times you fall, no matter how many times you fail, I accept you. You are accepted in my Beloved Son." This was an answer to prayer, a question I've asked the Lord many times over several years now. I never understood. I would go in circles wondering, "Lord do I really love you? I'm not even sure I obey you. I feel like I'm failing most of the time. I don't understand your expectations, how can I meet your standards? They're too high. I wanted so badly to love the Lord, but I figured if I didn't always know His will for my life and obey it, then I'd failed at loving Him. Most of the time I'd try to go in the prayer closet I'd feel like I fail at my duty to pray and intercede for others, and I'd get frustrated because I couldn't get past this wall. That wall was probably my own self-righteousness, and I didn't realize that prayer flows from His heart in a connection to ours--He is the One that lives to intercede for us. He showed me that He grows love in my heart for Him as I get to know Him and learn to trust Him. And that its out of this love inside of me for Him, which ultimately comes from a experiential knowledge of His love for me, will flow obedience. I think I'd probably heard this before, but in that moment it became real to me. My heart was overflowing with love for Him, and I felt the pleasure He has in me. Sitting at His feet and receiving from Him--doing nothing--is what has been teaching me this. This past year, as I began to face my brokenness like never before, and my inability to overcome these weaknesses, He had me write down the lies that some of my broken, innermost parts have believed about Him and myself for many years now. Most of these lies I already knew I believed. It's a project I haven't finished, but I knew I had to find the truth in His Word about the painful reality of these wounds and write them out on paper and begin to post them on the wall to look at continually, and make declarations over my life with them. In one of the verses I found for the lie of insufficiency and my inadequacy, He showed me that Jesus was and is the ALL SUFFICIENT, PERFECT offering to God FOR ME. In Leviticus 22:17-25 it says, "And whoever offers a sacrifice of a PEACE OFFERING to the LORD, to FULFILL his vow (covenant promise) or a FREEWILL offering from the cattle of the sheep, it must be PERFECT to be ACCEPTED; there shall be NO DEFECT in it..." And in Hebrews 5:9 it says, "And having been perfected, He became the author of eternal salvation to all who obey Him". Jesus became a fragrant offering and pleasing sacrifice (aroma) to God. He is that perfect sacrifice described in Leviticus! He was the fulfillment of the Law and the Prophets. He is the eternal High Priest. It's ok that I can't get it right and that I'm a weak and broken sinner. That's what He died and lived for, to fulfill the righteous requirements of the law that were against me and held me in judgment. He took them away and nailed them to the cross. The Word says the law is a tutor to lead us to Christ. Not so that we can be 'saved' and continue to live under judgment and condemnation, but so that we can be fully accepted in the sight of God! The enemy doesn't want us to understand this, because if we do, we will live as conquerors, living out our potential through the power of Christ in us, rather than as powerless failures unable to be good enough to be accepted by God--(one way we think this is in saying something like this: "I'm such a sinner, how can God possibly really like me or use me for His kingdom when I'm so weak and messed up?"). I may be wrong, but I don't think I'm the only one that's ever thought this. The reason I know, is because it's obvious this is not my own thought--it's from the enemy! It's a statement of condemnation, and Romans 8 says there is therefore now NO CONDEMNATION for those who are in Christ Jesus! But we don't recognize these thoughts as coming from another source, because we hear ourselves think them, we feel they are true, and a part of us actually believes they are true. This is another revelation for another post, and an important key I believe the Lord has begun to reveal to me. But back to the message of this post--the Lord wants us to know: "You do NOT have lack, you are NOT insufficient. You are NOT rejected or turned away." The Father gladly accepts our defected 'freewill offerings' to Him, but our forgiveness and righteousness has been accomplished through the sacrifice of His Son alone. Nothing can be added to it, nothing taken away. We who have believed in the Christ, the Son of the living God, have been stamped and sealed with the King's signet ring, sealed with His love that He has poured into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, and clothed with His holy, royal robe. Praise the Lord! He could have left us as we were, completely unable to change our hopeless state of broken and sinful humanity. But He came to redeem us and restore us to Himself. "Oh wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? Thank God-- through Jesus Christ our Lord!
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